Sunday, January 11, 2015

Week 2

This week has been a pretty uneventful one.... Well, kind of.

On Tuesday night as Colby and I were getting ready for bed Harvey got really sick. He was crying and crying and I went into his room and there was throw up. It made me so sad for him, as I went to pick him up he got sick again... everywhere. He was just crying, "mama ... mama..mmmmmaaammmaa." there is nothing sadder or that makes you feel as hopeless as seeing your baby sick. I gave hime a bath and got him in jammies and tried to give him some water and he puked again! This time it was all over me too. So we hopped in the bath, got all cleaned up and laid in my bed. Well, he was sick again and again so after 5 times and 4 baths all the bed sheets in our house and all his clean pj's we took him to grandpa and he and Colby gave hime a blessing. I just didn't know what to do. It was so sad to see him puking so much and have a fever. After all that trauma he wouldn't sleep in his own bed. Who could blame the kid? who would want to sleep in their own bed after that. So I put him in my bed and was fine as long as I was touching him. He was so funny about it. If he woke up and I wasn't touching him he would grab my hand and put it on his little belly or he would put his cheek on my cheek. Needless to say I hardly slept, I was too paranoid about his fever and he was constantly laying on me, grabbing at me, or kicking me.

I was exhusted the next day, and I had to get up for a Dr. Appt at 6:45. Luckily I was out of there by 7:00 and I was hoping I could catch a little sleep before Colby had to go to work. Sadly Harvey woke up as I walked in the door and wasn't happy. Poor baby still had a fever, so I gave him a cool bath and tried to get him to drink some water. Colby ran to the store to stock up on some sick baby essentials, and with Harv that included a Mickey Mouse Clubhouse Dvd. I mean you can only watch road rally on netflix so many times. Unless you are Harv of course and ask for 2-6 times a day. He didn't take a nap and I was at my whits end. This is where I knew my Heavenly Father was/is very aware of me that day. He is like clock work with his naps, and sleep schedule. So when he didn't go down for a nap till 2 I was ready to scream, I was soo tired and taking care of a sick needy baby is just exhausting. I was laying in my bed ready to fall asleep, when my friend Sara came in with a diet coke for me and a smoothie for Harvey. Although that may have seemed like a simply gesture for her to me at that moment it meant the world. She was aware of me and my needs at that time and knew I had a long night, but she had no idea I was at my breaking point. She left and I just Kim Kardashian ugly cried. Then, later that day I got a text from my sweet friend Shannon asking what my family wanted for dinner from Kneaders. It was just something so simple for her that made a huge difference to me! They saying raising children is the hardest job there is, and it's absolutely true! Although, with the help of an amazing support system, it's not so bad. I am so lucky to have AMAZING friends who are always looking out for me. That love Harvey as one of their own and that go out of their way to serve me.

I am so grateful that my Father in Heaven knew my needs at that very moment and delivered.  He works in mysterious ways. Like a diet coke from swig and a kick a salad from kneaders. He knew I hate bodily fluids and I was up cleaning them almost in tears. He knew I was so dang tired and that I just needed to see someone's healthy face.

Today is our 4th wedding anniversary. It's crazy that we have been married that long! With a sick baby we kept things pretty low key. Last night we put him down for bed then went to Cubbys for dinner. I know, Cubbys isn't very fancy, but it's so delicious. I crave it several times a week. After Cubby's we spent some romantic alone time at target. Ya, know doing exciting things. We decided to keep it simple mostly because we are going to Disney world in 3 weeks. Our toodles obsessed Harvey will be so happy, not to mention we get to show the Helm's what Disney is all about. They aren't quite believers yet. Keyword: yet.

I seriously can't believe it has been that long. Some days it seems like it was yesterday and others it seems like we have been married forever. I am so lucky I married someone who is perfect for me. Somedays he makes me wanna scream but mostly I just love him a lot. He is a great daddy and you can tell how much he loves Harv. He is just what I needed in a spouse and I am lucky I have him.

Here is to hoping we can kick this sickness in our house! We still aren't 100%. That is my goal for this week.

Sunday, January 4, 2015

Week one.

Week one of 2015. 

This week has been an interesting one. 
Flu, flu, puke, and luckily a visit with a few of my favorite people.  

I know I am not the only one that gets depressed after the holidays. Taking my tree down is so sad to me. Like a little piece of me is dying.. Luckily with Harvey the magic lives on, while he loves on all his new toys. We had a great low key Christmas! Lots of love, food and gifts. 

We had a great week minus all the sickness, we just can't seem to shake it around here. 

Monday: we had our second snowstorm, which would have been fine since I usually don't leave the house during them. Except, Colby forgot his keys at home. Like his work keys that unlock everything, and no one can do anything without them. He was also the only one at the branch since the snow storm held everyone up so he couldn't come home to get them. Kristynn and Dean were here, so we decided to just make it an adventure! It took us almost an hour to get to Colby's work that usually takes him 20 minutes. The freeway was so bad we just took the side roads. On the way there we talked about how fun it would be for Harvey and Dean to play in the snow, except the fact we didn't have snow clothes for Harvey. So thus, is here our adventure.. we went to Wal-Mart and literally they had one pair of snow boots and they were the right size! Too bad they were 25$ Spider Man boots. Desperate times call for desperate measures I suppose. We got everything but gloves... let me just tell you it is really hard to find gloves for a one year old, not to mention there isn't any motivation to drive all around town when it's like a blizzard outside. Since we were already basically in Provo I had to take her to Sodalicious. That place will be the death of me. I am embarrassed to admit how often I drive down there. She loved it, I knew she would. I mean who would't it's basically heaven and absolutely addicting. We searched for gloves some more, and finally found some. I was so close to showing her the ropes of Cubby's the best place to eat in Utah Valley, but it wasn't open for another 20 min and we were both starving so we settled for Apollo Burger. We made the trek back to my house and let the boys play in the snow. It was so fun to see our boys play and be friends. Luckily they had just seen each other 2 weeks before when Harvey and I went to AZ to see Kristynn graduate nursing school. They are so cute together! Nothing makes my heart happier for Harvey to be besties with my besties baby. Sadly, Kristynn had to make the treck home that day. I hope she is able to find a job in Utah so I can see her more. Distance sucks, as well as all your friends moving away. 

Wednesday and Thursday: 
NYE and New Years Day were pretty crappy. Flu, flu and some more flu. We did nothing. Like to the point it was painfully boring. Luckily I wasn't sick this time. It was more Colby and Harvey. They got lots of love and I got lots of netflix, it's basically a fair trade. 

I finally got a girls night. Hayden and Marcus were in town for Christmas break, so we got to steal her away from family so that we could spend time with her. Kels met us at Fashion Place and Cheesecake factory had a 1 1/2 wait, but it's worth it so we did so shopping while we waited. Per usual I just bought Harvey some clothes and nothing for me. I got him some really cute Mickey stuff since we are going to Disney World in 3 weeks! That and Harvey is obsessed with TOODLES. like every morning he comes on my bed, grabs my phone and says TOODLES MAMA, so i will put it on Netfllix. It is the only thing he will watch, He is OBSESSED. Anyways we finally got to cheesecake factory after we went to sephora and tried on all the makeup and looked like hookers. It was so nice to just sit and talk to with other mom's but most important friends. It is rejuvenating to talk to other women who understand this stage in life, ever if our circumstances are all a little different. At the end of the day we are all young mom's trying to maintain ourselves while raising little ones to be successful humans. Really cute little humans at that. I am so glad we could all get together even though Hayden is in AZ and Sara luckily just got back from Mexico that day and Kels living in Davis county. I have some great friends. I really do. I am glad they understand me, love me and my little family. We stuffed ourselves silly and stayed there wayyy too late. 

It was Hayden and Marcus full day in town and we hadn't really seen them much so Pam (who is basically, the nicest person on this planet) invited us to dinner so we could spend time with. Pam went all out! She even baked us rolls from scratch! Like I said, she is incrediable. It was so fun to just spend time with them at Pams it was like they never even left. I miss them so much it hurts. Harvey and Christian played great together. It's so fun to see them together. The little buddies were back at it again making a mess everywhere they went. I am so glad we finally got spend a little time with them and were so sad they had to go back today. Like I said, life really sucks when everyone grows up and moves away. 

Today we made a pact we won't be late for church this year. " There is no reason to be late to 1:00 church" Colby said. I was all showered, dressed and ready by 12:30. It was time to wake up Harvey at 12:40. I already had his clothes all ironed, snacks packed and everything ready to go. All I had to do was get him dresses and off we were. HAHAHAHAHAHA Harvey had other plans, as he often does. He woke up Pissed. Like he wouldn't stop crying and freaking out. He was so worked up and mad after he was dressed and we were walking out the door he threw up all over me and him. In my hair and all over my dress... oh and all over his only clean church pants. I knew that was satan working on me. At that moment it would have been so easy to say screw it and just go home, but I didn't. Harvey and I hopped in the shower, and ten minutes later we were on our way to church. Yes, I had soaking wet hair, Yes, Harvey had jeans on and a shirt that we should probably retire, but we were there and that's all that is important. Luckily we have the best nursery leader Amy Kerby and she loves him so much she let's him go in early. Like 3 months early. It makes such a difference to me. I can relax for a minute and get something out of church. It is so easy to want to skip church with a small child because honestly it's really hard to get something out of it. I am glad I have a husband that encourages to go and for the young women that I hate not seeing for a whole week that help me pull myself together.

Those are the highlights of my week. Other than that we started Friends from the very beginning and I tried to make banana pancakes. They turned out horribly, but hey cooking is not my strong point. It's a good thing that I am funny and a good friend. Who needs to know how to cook when you are funny and a good friend. right? Yea, I thought so too.

Can I just talk a second about how cute Harvey is? Of course I can, cause I can barely remember what happened this week, so I want to remember how cute he was when he was little when he is a teenager who doesn't wanna kiss his mama.

He is obsessed with 5 things right now. Jesus, Santa ( ho ho ho), toodles, mama and shoes. He is a well rounded little guy. Although he does get some of his favorites confused sometimes. On Christmas I asked him, Who brought all these gifts? He said, "Jesus". Every time he says it, he whispers it. It's adorable. I then asked who's birthday it is and he said "ho ho ho". One day he will get it straight right? He loves toodles (Mickey). We have so much Mickey stuff around our house it's not even funny. Harv can spot Mickey anywhere. Like the smallest Mickey and he FREAKs out. He will be dang good at hidden Mickey.

Well, He's adorable. Colby and I are healthy and happy what more could you ask for?

Not much.

It's been a great first week for 2015. Let's hope the rest of the year is pretty great too.


Saturday, April 19, 2014


I get anxiety at the word pregnancy. Man, it was hard. Some women are super lucky and it is nothing, but unicorns, rainbows and everything happiness is made of. For me it was nothing, but puke and sleeping on my couch. I was dead to the world for about 39 weeks and 6 days... but who is counting. 
Let's take a trip down memory lane, shall we.....

First Trimester: 
I wanna to cry when I hear those two words together. For starters my plate was full. I was taking 19 credits, teaching public speaking, working at the dentist office, and serving as a primary teacher and young women's advisor. We didn't want to tell anyone until about 12 weeks, but when you are puking every half hour it's kinda hard to keep under wraps. I know some people think... every half hour? dramatic much? No. I wish I was just being dramatic. There were some days that I just had a really hard time. A good day was only puking twice. Eating was a struggle. Luckily, the doctor told me if I managed to eat anything I was doing great. My diet my first trimester was kinda sketch. 

Food that I actually ate:
Chicken broth
Watermelon... Hard to find in January and February and super expensive. Luckily I puked it up at Best buy and got over it pretty quickly. 

That was it. I tried and tried to eat other food, but it didn't happen. I lost 10 pounds in the first 12 weeks, so that was that. 

I napped a lot. Like EVERYDAY. It was great, but i missed my friends. I missed life. I missed walking to the mailbox without puking and needing a nap. 

Second Trimester: 
It got better to where I was usually just puking once a day. Usually I would wake up, eat a cracker, go to the bathroom to puke and I just carried on with my day. I still had no energy. I would get home from work or school and just sleep. I missed my friends. I missed too many bach nights, because I felt like I was slowly dying. 

We found out we were having a boy. I so badly wanted a girl, because lets face it girl stuff is so cute, but I knew it was a boy. We went at 15 weeks and found out the gender so this mama could start shopping and that's just what I did. 

I graduated and my mom came. Sadly, I had no energy the whole time she was here, but I tried. 
I could eat more things, but still not very much and if I ate anything too heavy I puked it up. Everyone told me it gets better. I was still sick, but it got better. At this point I wanted to punch everyone in the face who LOVED pregnancy. 

I took a lot of naps. A LOT. 

Third Trimester: 
The puking subsided for the most part. glorious. 

Most people hate the third trimester. They get tired and uncomfortable (story of my life), but for me I was living the dream. I could be awake for more then 8 hours without needing a nap. I finally spent some time with my friends. 

I got the babies room all set up and had a baby.

Like, I said pregnancy was not the business, but having my babes totally is. So I guess it works out in the end. 

14 weeks
20 weeks 
30 weeks 
39 weeks 
Baby time 

Monday, October 21, 2013

The making of Harvey.

I'll spare you all the initial details... you know, all the stuff that happened before we found out.

We had been IUD free for about a year before we actually got pregnant. When I was pregnant I knew it.  I was sick from day 1.... ok not day one, more like day 21 if we are being honest with ourselves. 

Colby and I decided for our anniversary we wanted to do a session at the Salt Lake temple and stay downtown and just have a fun night on the town. We did a session at the temple and it was such a great experience for me it was my first live session. We checked into our hotel and headed to dinner at the cheesecake factory for a feast, it was delicious, but I was so stuffed I had to take my cheesecake to go. Yes, this is an important detail. When we got back to the hotel there was no fridge, but luckily we got married when it was fridged so I just put the cheesecake on the window sill where it was nice a freezing cold. We woke up the next morning and I finally had room for that cheesecake. So I devoured it like any classy woman eats cheesecake. We got ready and headed home, but before we went all the way home we decided to check out the new scheels that just opened up. HELLO there is a ferris wheel in that place, its like Disneyland for the outdoorsy folk. (I'll stick to the real Disneyland). We were going to get lunch at the cafe, but I felt so sick, I figured it must be that the cheesecake I ate that maybe didn't stay so cold last night and made me sick. Ahhh Haaaa it was the delicious, tasty, creamy... spoiled cheesecake.

I didn't think much of it, because it was the cheesecake. Well, two days later I was sick again. I told Colby I was pregnant. He didn't believe me. If you know me, I am slightly dramatic. I told Colby that I was probably pregnant every month, BUT I knew this was it. I was sick and not just making it up in my head. So I convinced Colby to at least let me go to the dollar store and buy a pregnancy test (because we had already spent so much on negative tests. Those bad boys are expensive... or they are when you buy a box every month. ) He finally gave in and we got 5. When checking out the lady told us good luck. Uhhh thanks lady. It's a smart thing to say if you think about it. If we were wanting to get pregnant, then yes good luck. If we had not been wanting to be pregnant, good luck was a safe thing to say. We got home and I went straight to the bathroom to pee. It showed up right away. I rushed to show Colby, he may or may not of made me take 3 tests.

He finally believed me after 3! It was such a surreal moment. We wanted nothing more to have a baby, and it was finally our time. We knew it would happen when it was our time. It came at the perfect time for us. It was my last full semester of classes and a busy one at that. I know if I had a baby before I was done with school I would of never finished. Some people think, so what. Who cares if you finish school, your calling on this earth is to be a mother. Yes, that is true, but it was very important to finish school. Graduating from college is something that I have always wanted for myself, and I knew I could do it. I've seen so many girls give up what they truly wanted to have kids and later on have regretted it. Not having kids, but not doing what they wanted first. Some people may think I might sound selfish, but Heavenly Father knew the right time for us. I don't think I am better then women who didn't finish school, but it was something that was important to me.

Thursday, June 13, 2013

New Year's Eve.

Well, being the party animals we are, we had zero plans for NYE. Colby had to work during the day so basically I figured we would just stay at home. You know really live up the end of 2012. Tam and Duane being the party people they are had made reservations to Tucanos. I know lucky us. We ended the night off with games. That's the life when your friends are celebrating the new year in Thailand, Mexico, and California.

Wednesday, January 2, 2013

Martha Stewart.

That's my new name. I got a sewing machine for Christmas, and I was so excited. I've always wanted to learn to sew. When I was little I was sit and my grandmas machine and pretend to sew, so ever since then I've wanted to learn at least a straight line. Well, my mother-in-law is a saint. She agreed to give me sewing lessons since she is the one who bought it for me. We have been sewing fools for the last few days and it has been so fun. Who knew I had it in me? I though I only liked trashy tv and shopping. Sometimes you even surprise yourself.

Sad day.

Sunday was a sad day. It was our last time teaching our primary class of almost two years. I seriously became so attached to these little girls. I feel like the are some of my bff's . I loved hearing about their weeks, I Loved them coming to church and telling me any news that they were excited about,I love all the pictures they drew me, and all the notes they wrote me. I'm honestly so blessed to have been their teacher and help shape their precious little souls. I may or may not have teared up or balled after our last class together. They will always have a place in my heart. They are basically perfect in my eyes.